Tag Archives : PTSD

WHERE DO YOU GO?


Where do you go when you turn away I don’t understand why you don’t want to stay I want to connect And I want to belong Yet it seems we were hearing a much different song Or perhaps you weren’t really Ever singing along It’s not easy for me to let someone in I want so much to try but…

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DAY 8: HOLDING ON


Originally posted May 19, 2017 I’ve danced on that razors edge more times than I care to count. But last year was the closest I’ve ever been. I can’t tell you how or why I did it, but I’m glad that I decided to “Hold On…” And as I mentioned a friend recently, you can’t compare one person’s pain with…

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DAY 8: ON GOING THERE


Posted May 18, 2017 Wow, I just read what I posted yesterday and took another look at your responses. Sometimes I wonder if I’m an idiot to be putting it all out here like this. But instead of the judgement one could easily expect, I see your responses to all of this insanity of mine and I read so many…

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DAY 14: ON SUICIDE AND LEARNING A NEW DANCE


Robin Williams, “The Fisher King” TriStar Picturs, Columbia Pictures Posted on May 24, 2017 ”On August 11, 2014, Williams committed suicide at his home in Paradise Cay, California, at the age of 63…. His body was cremated and his ashes were scattered in San Francisco Bay on August 12.” I used to Love watching Robin Williams. He was definately my…

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DAY 5: SHIT JUST GOT REAL


The short story today is that last night was beyond awful. The long story is pretty long so no worries if you’d prefer to stick with the short version. I Love each one of you just for caring. MLMB… —————- I think I sort of know now why it’s so hard for so many people to stop using opiates. For…

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DAY 7: ON AGORAPHOBIA


Posted May 17, 2017 When I woke up this morning and realized I’ve made it through a full week I was pretty psyched. Andy and I even did our whole regular walk this morning and a couple of songs caught my imagination and I chuckled when I posted them. I even had a chance to sit and visit with my…

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DAY 12: ON MEMORIES AND MEMORIAL DAY PART TWO


Originally posted on May 22, 2017 Just a heads up. There is not enough paint to make this a pretty picture. I completely understand if you’d prefer to pass. MLMB… ————————————- If you read what I posted the other night about being needlessly thrown into full blown narcotic withdrawal, you (as did I) only got a tiny glimpse into the…

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NIGHT TEN: ON MEMORIES & MEMORIAL DAY PART 1


Originally posted May 20, 2017 I don’t know where this is gonna go but i’ve been trying to watch a probably decent movie for 45 minutes now and I just can’t even take it in. And I really don’t think it has anything to do with the movie. I just can’t seem to get out of my own head tonight……

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